He is Superman

posted 29.08.2015 by Kate Burgess

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philippians 4:6

I've read and reread this scripture verse over and over and I still have difficulties with it. I struggle, I start to back away, I want to give up, look http://biggestloserthegame.com/body-beast-reviews.html. It's the truth, it may not be perfect, but it's the truth. How hard is it to not worry? Given Jesus has given me a lot more peace about my heart and for that I am so thankful, but I have realized after reading this scripture, that I haven't let that peace spread throughout other areas of my life. I use to be SO worried about my heart. Like unbelievably so. It got to a point in high school where I was so worried about it that I pretended I didn't have anything wrong with me. Little did I know, that just made me worry ten times MORE. Once I found Jesus and surrendered to Him, my worries about my heart melted away.

Now yes, living with an incurable heart disease that makes my heart too big and my muscles too weak is hard to live with, but it's a heck of a lot easier with Jesus by my side. I guess I just took the biggest issue I had and set all my patience and trust in it. I am so thankful that I don't worry anymore.And yes in all honesty I mean that. Who knows what is going to happen to me, but I don't mind not knowing. Not because I am perfect and fearless and superwoman, no it is because my God is perfect and fearless and He is superman. My heart physically and spiritually has been completely consumed in His heart.

So yes, I could consider myself a patient person but probably only a 1/4 patient person. The rest of the 3/4 of my life matters just as much. My future, when I will get married, where we will live, if we will have kids, what I'm going to do, can we do it, when can we. It's those parts of my life that I haven't completely trusted to God. I haven't given Him my trust like I gave Him my heart. It's funny because it seems like if I were normal, it'd be a heck of a lot harder to be worry free from a disease thats incurable and deadly. No it is so much harder for me to just live and let Jesus show me when things will happen. It's a heck of a lot harder working everyday trying to save save even though my heart doesn't feel good. It's a lot harder to not worry about the future and when and where we will get married and where we will live and if we will be able to afford what we want. It's hard to not think of the numbers all the time and the timing of things, and if I'm working enough or doing enough or being enough. It's exhausting trying to be superwoman. I don't think God created me to do that, but yet I do it anyway. I try so hard to do what I can so that my "future" will be comfortable and wonderful, but really ultimately I am not in control of that. It's easy to say I'm not worried, but it's harder to mean it. I guess that's what I need to work on.

On a side note, when I blog, like usual I know it's not my writing, it's just Jesus using my blog and my fingers to type this. So with that said, I guess I wrote this because maybe someone else out there is struggling just as much as I am with something they haven't trusted to the Lord yet. And maybe like me, they can openly and honestly say that they need to work on it, that they don't trust, but they want to and they will. It's not an overnight thing. It's a daily thing and as we work on it, Jesus doesn't miss it. In fact I like to think He pays special attention to it because He knows we are trying, He knows and He won't leave us, He will only strength us. He said so.

What is something in your life that you haven't trusted God with?

How can you start that process today?